Mia mera pou fainotan san oles tis alles,alla telika katelhkse na mou swsei th zwh

Pisteua pws telika tha zousa me auto gia panta,pws apla eprepe na to elegxw kai na mathw na sunuparxw.Mexri pou katalaba pws htan ola mesa sto kefali mou.

15 toulaxiston xronia,ta tria tessera teleutaia pou htan suneidhta htan kai ta pio frixta,ta pio sklhra,ta pio agwniwdh.Agwnia na gemisw to keno pou mou dhmiourgouse h idea tou apoxwrismou tou idiou mou tou eautou opws ton eixa sunithhsei,omws eprepe,eprepe telika na to kanw,eprepe telika na stamathsw na me katastrefw,eprepe telika na apagkistrwthw apo auto to teixos pou aplwnotan mprosta mou kathe stigmh gia na mou kalupsei ta pragmatika mou problhmata,gia na mou dhmiourghsei ena akoma megalutero pou tha ta sbhsei ola.
Deilia,deilia einai sthn pragmatikothta,fobos,apognwsh,agxos gia to agxos,ania gia th skepsh-mexri pou eftase h stigmh,mexri pou dialuthhke,dialuthhke dioti dieluse prwta to egw mou kai meta to egw mou,epitelous egw to dielusa.
Efaga oso den mporousa allo,mexri pou de mporousa na anapneusw,mexri pou katalaba oti tha me skotwne,oti tha pethaina.
Katalaba pws htan oi teleutaies stigmes,oi pio entones autou tou marturiou,autou tou ateleiwtou basanismou,auths ths aneipwths,agnwsths se olous gia to megethos ths,trelas.
Mphka sthn toualeta-eprepe na epibiwsw,arxisa na to bgazw apo mesa mou,fuge epitelous,GIATI DE FEUGEIS!!
GIATI ME PONAS,GIATI ME KATASTREFW ETSI??
Sugxarhthria loipon,ksereis polu kala na se skotwneis,ksereis polu kala na uperballeis perissotero apo allous sthn praksh,ksereis na ftaneis sta oria-ftanei omws pia,oxi allo,oxi allo,dioti kourasthka,prepei epitelous na apoxairethsw to xontro paidi.De sou ftaiei se tipota,de to aparniesai-mh stenaxwriesai,prepei na to afhseis na fugei giati alliws tha se trwei,tha se ponaei,de tha se afhsei na zhseis,de tha se afhsei na oloklhrwtheis.
Mphka kai kleisthka sthn toualeta.To stomaxi mou ponouse apo ola auta pou eixa katabroxthisei sxedon amashta,de mporousa na anapneusw.O emetos htan toso eukolos-to dhlhthrio pou ebgaine apo mesa mou pikro pasxiza na diwksw prin me steilei gia ta kala pisw.Bges apo mesa mou epitelous,mono bogkhta kai xtupiomouna ston toixo,ma htan toso,toso,toso eukolo.To nikhsa,htan profanes.Epitelous meta apo ligo mporesa na anapneusw ksana me ligh prospatheia.To stomaxi mou akoma baru alla toulaxiston tha zousa.
Meta apo ligo h anaisthhth me rwthse giati de trww.Mou hrthe na thn plakwsw stis sfaliares,den katalabe tipota ap'th mia wra pou hmoun kleismenh ekei mesa kai fwnaza san plhgwmeno zwo,san lukaina panw ap'to pethameno ths paidi.
De thelw na me nikhsei auto to parelthon-einai toso baru,tha einai sklhrotero mellon.
'O,ti exw kerdisei de tha anteksw na einai parodiko,na einai mia parwdia,na einai mia koroidia ston idio mou ton eauto.
To xw pei pws tha einai o thanatos mou.De tha to anteksw,einai toso polu,einai toso uperbolika anousio gia na mou trwei etsi th zwh mou,na me katasparazei xwris ixnos logikhs.
Prepei na palepsw ligo akoma,ligo akoma,ligo akoma.Kai kserw pws twra eimai sthn telikh eutheia.Kai h' tha me gamaei mia zwh h' tha kerdisw th zwh mou.
Kai oriste pws ena 'laxtaristo' krouasan pralinas mporei na metablhthei se zhthma zwhs kai thanatou,trelas kai uparksiakhs apognwshs.Feugio apo ola kai pesimo mesa sthn trupa me ta xeirotera skata